Christmas Poems

These are two poems that I wrote at about the same time.

Tis The Season

Tis the season when thoughts turn to friends and family alike
New and old, near and far, they're in our hearts all year
We may not get to physically spend it together
But a piece of my heart your always in
I want to wish you a Merry Christmas
And a Happy New Year
I hope all your dreams come true



Winter

Winter is a magical time
Snow turns the ground pure and white
And lights twinkle like the stars in the sky
People bustle to and fro
With and bags and gifts galore
Children whisper in Santa's ear
And try to be good this time of year
But the best part of all is being with you

Things You'll Never Know

There are things you'll never know
Because I can no longer tell you.
There are things you'll never know
Because I can no longer risk it.
There are things you'll never know
Because the ties are breaking.
There are things you'll never know
Because the trust is fading.

Two Words

There are really only two words
I ever wanted to hear from you
But you'll never have the balls to say them.

I gave you over twenty years
To say those words with sincerity
But yours words only hurt me.

Well I'm done seeking you out
In hopes of hearing those words.
If you want me you know where to find me.

But you better be prepared
To utter those two little words.
I'm sorry is all I want to hear.

Lost & Alone

I feel so lost and alone
in this world called my life
I'm at a crossroad
And I have to decide

The choice I make is always wrong
And others a quick to criticize
Yet when it is decision time
They are no where to be found

My friends are leaving one by one
Never to be seen again
This time next year only
One will come back

And soon she will
Be gone as well
All she needs
Is that job


Their lives go on
While I'm stuck in place
Because of a decision
I can't seem to make.

Search

I keep searching for answers
To the questions in my mind
But can never seem to get anywhere.

Instead of the answers that I seek
I find more questions
No answers are in sight.

Who am I
Who do I want to be
Who am I going to be?

What is the next step
Will I take the next step
Or will I cower in fear?

What will happen next
What does the future hold
Am I brave enough to find out?

John

I feel so lost at times
Make that most of the time
I can feel your eyes on me
I can see the expectation there
Then later on they change
And disappointment is all I see
I wonder what did I do wrong?

What mistake did I make
Was it a slip of the tongue
That put that look there
Or did I forget an event
That I never really knew about
Or did I not complete a job
that I was never given instructions for?

War

I'm sick of this
this never ending war
with its constant battles
I win some
But lose most
So why do I even fight?

Sometimes I don't even
Realize there's a battle
Until it is already over.
Sometimes I know
they're coming and
those are the few I win.

I want to just give up
Yet I'll never win if I do.
So I'm off to fight
One more time
This battle in my mind.